With the advent of our special “UseYour Stash” Component of the Month challenge, I've been thinking
about the giant hoard of beads that I have amassed over the last 20+
years. Man, I really have some cool stuff, rare stuff, old stuff,
and stuff from amazing artists. When I started going through things,
looking for inspiration and ideas of what I would like to make this
month, many different reasons came up as to why all these awesome
ingredients are still in their “raw” forms, rather than being
made into jewelry to showcase their loveliness. As I know I'm not
the only one with quite the stash/collection/hoard, I thought that I
would take the time to talk about the reasons why we hold onto these
things...and why it can be so hard to create with them.
Memory Lane
These are some beads I've had for a
very long time. It always seems like beads that we form a
sentimental attachment to are difficult to use. Perhaps it's a fear
of losing that connection or memory, but for whatever reason, these
beads are still in my collection, after many years. The two blue
vintage Czech lampwork beads, are some of the first really “fancy”
beads I bought. I can't have been over 11 or 12 years of age, but I
distinctly remember paying a whole $5 for the larger one...that was an entire week's allowance! Around the same time, I started
appreciating African trade beads, which evolved into an obsession
with the bright teardrop shaped glass beads known as Wedding Beads.
Again, I remember paying $3 for a single bright turquoise fat
drop...oh how indulgent that seemed! And the carved plaster scarab
came from a trip to the Portland Art Museum in highschool, to see a
traveling Egypt exhibit. I was so excited to find beads in the gift
shop, spent a long time picking the perfect ones, and I remember my
boyfriend (my very first one) being so pleased that he could buy
something for me. My mother was one of the chaperons, but somehow
my first kiss managed to occur that day - and spotting this bead in the box immediately brings back the memories.
Beads That Call Your Name
Another category of beads that we seem
to have difficulty using are beads that we identify strongly with.
They could fit so perfectly into your style, or have a significant
motif that you identify with, or be made out of a material that
strongly resonates with you. The lampwork beads above are made by a
friend of mine named Wilbur (no online presence, but if you're ever
at the Oregon Country Fair, you might encounter him). For some
reason, Wilbur's beads speak to me. I love his colors and textures –
they all remind me of tropical underwater creatures or frogs or
snakes – all themes that abound in my beadwork. He is primarily a
stained glass artist, so his beads aren't super fancy or technically
advanced...and yet, I still hold on to them, rather than creating
something marvelous...Why is that?
You might have noticed that I don't use
much stone in my beadwork, at least not on a regular basis. I am
just more drawn to glass beads, bright colors, and creating with
other people's artwork. But there are a few stones that really speak
to me, and carnelian is one of them. The rabbit and frog fetish my
mother brought brought back for me from one of her spinning retreats
when I was young...so I guess these beads fit into the Memory Lane
category too. The carnelian donut is huge and glossy, but I've just
never come up with the right combination of seed beads to go with
it...not for lack of trying either! And the carnelian and agate fish
fetishes...oh, I just love them! So tiny, and precisely detailed!
It would be a shame to overpower them with too much beading...but I
don't want to just use them as dangles either.
I Love It Too Much!
When I was talking with a friend about
this topic, her first response was “Oh yes, I have beads I can't
use...I want to, but then I won't have them!” I think this is a
common thought among those of us that start collecting art beads.
With many other types of beads we can rationalize this thought away
by telling ourselves that we can find them again, or perhaps an even
better alternative will come along down the road. But art beads are
usually one-of-a-kind creations – little works of art that will
never be duplicated. Like this hand carved tagua nut horseshoe
crab...why I'm so entranced by this little guy, I'm not sure.
Perhaps it's the detail, maybe it's the technical artistry, and maybe
it's simply that I've never seen a horseshoe crab bead before. For
whatever reason, I just can't make a piece with him...yet...I still
need time to excavate him from the box, fondle him, marvel at the
little claws and texture...and put him back.
I'm Not Good Enough...
I think every creative person goes
through phases of feeling creatively or technically inadequate, and I
particularly find this to be an issue when creating with art beads.
I worry that I'm going to take away from, rather than enhance, the
other person's work. I worry that my work won't be of the same
caliber as theirs. Above all, I worry that the other artist won't
like what I've done with their piece! Pictured above is one of my
friend Shawn's gorgeous borosilicate glass jellyfish...it's one of
the first pieces that I bought from him, before we were even buddies.
I've made half a dozen epic necklaces with other beads and pendants
of his...but for some reason I just can't figure out what to do with
this little guy. It's a smaller pendant, and would be easily
overpowered by too much color or beadwork. I know the look that I
would like to achieve, but I haven't quite managed to conceptualize
it in my head yet, a necessary step to my creative process. Back
into the box he goes, until I have just the right inspiration,
technique, and urge to create with this barnacle-y beauty.
My Personal Dilemma...
I don't want to be a bead collector. I
know too many awesome creative people that have amazing, inspiring
bead collections...to the point where acquiring beads has taken
precedent over their creativity. I do have a large, comprehensive
collection/stash/hoard/what-have-you...and as much as I love
buying/trading/or otherwise acquiring beads, I don't like the feeling
that collecting could take over my creative process. Having a
comprehensive stash is integral to my creative process – I very
much dislike when I don't have something that I “need” for a
project already in the house. I view my stash as a creative tool …
and yet I still struggle with actually using my “special”
beads.
Take this massive Venetian hollow glass bead for example. I
love the unusual color combination. It took two talented
artists to create it – one person did the glass blowing, with the
perfectly aligned layers of color, and a second did the cold-work,
precisely grinding away at the surface to reveal the layers
underneath. Nothing else in my stash is remotely like it...and yet
someday I will make an awesome piece with this bead. After all, this
was the intention of the artist – for their work to make it out
into the world and be made into adornment that can be appreciated as
more than a single bead. But I can't let go just yet...
Do you have these thoughts too, as you
peruse your stash to choose beads for this month's challenge? Is
this something that you struggle with on a regular basis? How do you
talk yourself into creating with beads you love? Or do you just
lovingly fondle them before gently placing them back into their home
in your stash? Please tell us! We would love to know!
Lindsay
